uBeR tIrEsOmE. tO-tHe-MaX

finally, i'll be free again! this is my last day of my job in"here". for the final day, i was able do the database of 650 list of companies! sooooobrang dami! but i didnt finish it. hahaha... wala na akong magawa sa araw na to! dahil wala na talaga akong magawa, more than 10 times kong na-open ang friendster account ko, 5times for my deviant art account, and more than 15 times of opening of my blog. at dahil wala nga akong magawa, heto ako ngayon, nag-popost ng walang kwentang article habang hinihintay si boss for my last salary.haha :D dahil this is my last day, at wala naman akong desktop or even laptop, medyo matatagalan akong mag-update ng blog. sana nga lang ay makabili ako or mas okay kung may magbibigay! waaaaaaaaah! ayayay! maya-maya magkikita kami ng mga friends ko para mag-swimming ulit. pero dahil nasira ang mood ko last night, nasira na din ang mood ko para mag swimming. i'll volunteer na lang to be their official photographer for this night. i hope tawagan na ako ng the picture company or regal entertainment para hindi ako ma-stuck up ng matagal. (sigh) hay! for bum and kuya jake, thanks for comforting me today. if you guys are reading this, you already know about it. thanks talaga. parang i wanted to bring this laptop at home. "sir i wanted to take care of your laptop. Can you just give it to me?" hahaha to sir justin, thanks for the dinner before in masan garden. thanks for introducing the korean cuisine. i looove it! its just that,i only have small intestine that's why i cant eat a lot :D haha if there's a cocktail party, just call us. :D

am i really significant?

WORTHLESS.

That’s what I feel at this point. My existence here is too insignificant. I am worthless. As if i was just created to point out weaknesses, faults, errors and mistakes. Name it! For the past few days, I tried to compromise to an anonymous. I thought that i finally found my worth. But after “this” incident, i found out that i am definitely WORTHLESS! And so i wanted to disappear in a snap. Those faults ive made wasn’t intended for any erroneous motives. Is it just that so easy to remember your mistake and just so easy to forget your benevolence? Well, what can i do? I am worthless! di ba nga? Im not famous. Im not well-of. Im not clever like them. Im not attractive .If there's another word for flawed, that would be me. Making myself WORTHLESS!

i wrote this last night

mY WeEk-End!

Hay! I thought im almost done working with the database. But I was wrong! Ang dami pa my goodness gracious! I need a break! So, nothing else can relax me but to update my blog, check-out my friendster account, myspace account (i have a friend request waiting for an approval), check out my mail, account in my high school website and transfer the picture from my digi cam. Haha to make it short, do personal stuffs! Hala! Pano kaya yun! Im going to resign na. Until this week na lang ako. How will I update my blog?! :( wala pa akong laptop :( Di bale, one day, makakabili din ako :)

So ano na nga ba nangyari sa mga araw na wala akong entry sa blog? Reminder, this would be a loooong post. I hope you could finish reading this one (kung may interesado lang mag basa. Pero sa pagkakaalam ko sa ngayon, isa pa lang ang nagtyatyagang magbasa ng blog ko. No other than, VANZ! Haha)


“Saying goodbye doesn’t mean forever.”

I was before alone calling a light. Then God blessed me with a true friend. She’s always right there holding me close and dries my tears. She’s the best friend that I ever had. But now she had already left us.

:( However as one of the song says, “Saying goodbye doesn’t mean forever.” Still it’s just really tremendously sad that the person you used to go along often and the one sharing you with logical matters wouldn’t be there as same as before. oh how sad was that. :( We would never see our dear friend for a year. She wouldn’t be with us on special occasions including her upcoming birthday. Oohhh… :(Last Saturday, August 23, was the last opportunity for us to see her personally. The last opportunity for us to eat together and to personally say goodbye. we spent dinner in Pancake House while having some small droll talks especially with "our guitarist", which we had never seen for a long period of time. Upon seeing "him"c rying, pati ikaw malulungkot sa kanya kasi iiwanan sya ng pinaka-mamahal nya. Nakakalungkot kaya yun
:( Before, I made a song inspired by the friendship we had with my barkadas. I wrote it during the time wherein our graduation day is already approaching. Part of the story of the song goes like this. She’s been detaching from us because she thought that we would already leave her. But then, what we wanted is to spend our last days with her even for the last time. But now, the condition goes the other way around. Kami ang naiwan at sya ang umalis :( do I need to make another song for that? hay! Buti na lang at nasa post-modern generation na tayo ngayon. There are different devices that you can use for communication. There’s internet and wireless phone. That’s the advantage being in a post-modern generation. So, after the dinner, we went home na. While she’s saying goodbye, "our guitarist" is crying and me? no-obvious-poignant-reaction-at-all. Parang hindi nag sink-in ang lahat. Not until nakauwi ako ng bahay! SAPUL! Naisip ko na ang magaganap! What a super late reaction. So,that’s it! Nawalan na naman ako ng friend na pumuntang ibang bansa. Una si "my love".then "my dear friend" followed him. And "she" is the latest. Ako kaya kalian makakaalis? Not for work I hope, but for a trip or to study as well.Calling the attention of God?! haha

AnG TuLoG Ko…

the first picture of course is me. then followed by me and my sister ghen. then the last shot is kaming magkakapatid:D

Nung Saturday, halos 11pm na ako nakauwi ng bahay kasi nga nakipag kita ako sa mga friends ko. Then pagdating ko sa bahay, sabi ni ate ghen na 3pm daw ang alis naming papuntang Batangas. Oh mY! Ngayon ko lang ulit ma-eexperience ang maiklingtulog. Nakatulog ako ng araw nay un banding 12 midnight. Then nagising ako ng nga 2:30 am. (actually hindi yun kusang pag-gising bagkus, ginising kami).twing aalis kami, si papa irritable lagi. Gusto nya, mabilisan kumilos.hello?! babae?!makupad?!madaming kailangang ayusin sa sarili! Kaya mahirap maging babae, laging minamadali, mahirap mag shopping. Mga ganung bagay. Anyway, mga more than 2 hours lang ang tulog ko nun!bangag! tapos hindi naman ako nakatulog sa trip. Tapos pagdating dun sa bahay sa batangas hindi din ako nakapag nap kasi ang gugulo ng mga pinsan kong maliliit lagi akong kinukulit. Laging excited sa akin. Haha pero nakakatuwa. Kaya nga pala kami pumunta dun kasi, we celebrated my lola’s birthday dun sa bahay naming sa subdivision na may ilaw na, in-fairness! Sobrang kakapagod ng first day. Pagdating ng gabi, tulugan na! hala! 7 pm pa lang, tulog na ang lahat! So wala akong magagawa kundi matulog na lang din. Para kaming sardines! Kasi lahat ng pinsan kong maliliit dun din natulog sa amin haha. So, pinilit kong matulog at thanks god, nakatulog naman ako. Then nagising ako ng mga 6 am at pagbangon ko, napakasakit ng ulo ko na para bang inuntog sa pader! Natulog pala ako ng walang pillow! Inagaw sa akin yung unan ko! hay! Napakamalas na weekend! Hindi ako nagkaroon ng maayos at mahimbing na tulog! At ng lahat ng kamalasan sa pagtulog, binawi ko sa byahe pauwi. Haha so there it goes, the 2 days vacation? (vacation nga ba?) in batangas.

HaVe YoU eVeR TrIeD tO SwIm DuRiNg RaInY dAyS?

vanz and me. yem,vanz nd me. me :D haha (sabi ni yem my nag hi-hi daw sa last pix. loko talaga yun! i like my hair here :D

Yesterday, (August 26) after work, vanz and I swam in Grand Hampton the Fort! Partida, kakatapos lang ng napakalakas na ulan ng araw nay un Haha of course we should at least utilize the benefits being offered before we leave the company this week. I had so much fun! It’s just the three of us in the swimming pool area. Yem is with us, but he didn’t swim. Napakalamig ng tubig! I was shaking! Haha kahit hindi na ako marunong mag-swim. Then of course, time have latest picture. And our official photographer during that day is no other than, YEM! Yehey! Haha this coming Friday, we’re planning to swim again but this time hopefully is with our other friends. Masarap mag swimming pag tag ulan :D

mY LaZy Eye

finally! yesterday i was able to buy my artificial tears for my left lazy eye. haha artificial tears. natatawa mga friends ko pag sinasabi ko sa kanila. the retina of my left eye has been damaged due to an accident before when i was eight years old i think. so, i still need to have my check-up on friday in opthalmological foundation of the phils. kaya pala magulo ang paningin ko sa mundo. minsan madilim. minsan maliwanag. di pala pantay ang mata ko. haha but then i hope this can be cured. ( keeping my fingers crossed )

pray for me. try nyo lang ayos lang din.

LAdIeS aNd GEnTlEmEn, wE’rE nOw LaUnChInG, tHe KOrEaN iNvAsIoN!

Whaaaat the…?! That was my reaction yesterday in the launching that I attended in Quezon City. It was three o’clock in the afternoon when my boss pulled me out from the office to go to UPTOWN21 launching. It was a loooong waiting… I was informed that the program will start at 6PM! Whaaat the…?! Aaack… I haven’t taken my lunch! And I’m not feeling well and I want to go home! I still need to buy artificial tears. Aaaack…I’m so helpless! When I found out that we’re gonna finish the program, I told to my friend, “ano kaya, tumakas ako dito at baybayin ang daan palabas kasabay ang paglubog ng araw?” what a silly idea hahay ganyan talaga pag gutom or I may say if you’re not really in love with your work. Sigh Anyway, going back to the invasion, oh I mean the lanching, I guess it wasn’t about the launching of the project instead the Korean invasion in our country. Yes! Most or I may say 98 % of the visitors are Koreans… Nothing to wonder with the program theme, touched with Korean traditional culture. I thought it was fiesta, because of the “drum beat boys”. Then after a while, there was a fireworks display, maybe it was New Year! Haha ganyan ko nilibang ang sarili ko nung mga oras na yun. Then I was also into cute hunting that times, pero i haven’t spot anyone. Rain was not there! Cholo was also not around! Even Marlon in witch yoo hee! Oh gosh! After a loooong waiting, here comes the dinner of course Korean cuisine. The launching ends with 10 minutes fireworks display. It was okay. I dont mean to sound that i hate koreans. i like korea. i looove watching koreanovelas. i wanted to travel in korea. i wanted to explore and learn their culture. but during that night, i just didnt enjoy it so well. So that was my very boring slash tiring Tuesday.


i'm updating my blog while woking from this work that sucks!
moving forward to the future never ends. im now preparing to transfer into another world! san naman kaya yun?! next time ko na lang ipagpapatuloy ang pagpapakilala sa mga friends-ter ko. and to vanz, thanks for informing me with those typo-errors here hehe pasensya, i have this lazy eye eh... :D

A looooonG bReAk! :D

August 16, Saturday

IT HURTS!


A minute ago when I entered the room
You called my name and ask me to lie down,
An indication, to start the session.

Then I was lying on the bed, taking a break.

As moonstar 88 plays their song migraine,
You place your hand on my hair,
Fixing it with full of care.

Suddenly fifteen minutes after,
I felt your hands moving on my face.
It was so relaxing as if it was the first time.
Then you noticed that I feel cold and shaking,
So you get a cloth and put it on my body,
Giving me the normal heat.

Maybe you also enjoyed what you’re doing,
Cause it last for twenty five minutes until I asleep.

But later on I started to feel the pain.
While you’re still ongoing,
Tears on my eyes continuously flowing.
Eight times that you dried those tears,
Yet it doesn’t help from the pain I’m feeling.

It was my choice to do it,
That’s why i never blamed you.
Though after it gives me relaxation,
That facial treatment session really hurts!


Yes! That was just a facial treatment session and nothing more than that like what you’re thinking while you’re reading it. Hehe Last Saturday, my friend vanz and I decided to give a different treat for ourselves. So we went in The Face It salon to have a facial treatment. That session took us about 1 hour and 30 minutes for 470 pesos. Oh my gosh! Actually i’m supposed to expend 240 pesos only for facial treatment, lazer and vacuum. But my attendant (Jennifer) told me to avail for mask also, so that it wouldn’t be painful and reddish in color! Then I was thinking that she’s only making me “pr” to avail the service and pay for much higher price. Since I’m already lying on the bed ( nakakahiya naman kung umatras ako haha may mga planong ganun?!) and afraid to feel soooo much pain, I just uttered SURE on her.haha that was fun!


August 17, Sunday

from left to right (reena's friend,yem,reena,albert,jen-jen,leo,sam,me,cha,ate bro,taga church i forgot the name, ate jen,vanz and kuya tutoy)

Even before, we already planned to make a despidida party for our friend jen-jen before she leave for Amsterdam. The date was all settled, and going to happen this day. Everyone was planning to have a dinner somewhere like, Pizza hut. But there were those people suggesting to go for Dampa near MOA blah blah blah! Even before our college years, we can’t make a CONCRETE plan. Sigh! Nothing changes. But that was fun pa rin. Medyo tinatamad talaga akong umalis ng Sunday. I dunno. But still, every plan needs to be accomplished! Right?! Yeah! Before the said dinner, we visited first our friend Clang in the hospital at 2:30 PM. She had this scarlet disease which they say was very rare, 1 out of 10 people. May mga ganung findings. Haha Then everyone who are now working gave "our contribution" (yah im working in the unknown company) for the dinner. Everyone is 500 each. Haha dati tig be-bente lang and ambagan namin, ngayon, 500 na! hahaha parang asensado na e noh?! Haha And then we proceeded in Grace to attend the pm service. (sorry Lord hindi ako masyadong nakikinig kay pastor Egay. Nakapag church na kasi ako ng 5am kaya yun, inaantok ako ng pm) so, after a while, we eat dinner. And ang baksak from all the plans?! KFC! Tama KFC! Whew. KFC ang baksak. We’re all 15!( me, sam, leo, cha, vanz, yem, bez, jen-jen, ate bro, ate jen, kuya chuck, ate bro and jen-jen’s couz kuya tutoy,reena and the friend of reena.) what a big family! Grabeh!with “H” for heavy! But it was really enjoy! Lahat nag-uusap nang pasigaw! Haha (I hope everybody enjoyed it especially Ms. Jen-jen :D



August 18,Monday

It’s holiday! Hayaayay! :p I spend the whole time in the house. Then I’ve got a text message from my friend yem , and he’s inviting me to watch A very special love, film with apparatus theory haha actually, matagal na nila talagang gustong manood nun ni vanz . But I didn’t come with them. So it was like their “date” haha Parang, I really wanted to stay in the house. To watch television and update myself with the tv shows sigh matagal na akong di nakakanood ng tv! As in! so, Monday was a total rest for me.


so that was the looong... break! :D
sana maulit ulit :D

Vanz ...“my college classmate slash friend slash neighbor slash bandmate slash officemate”


hayayay! some of our friends are telling us, hindi ba kayo nagsasawa sa isa't-isa? In my case i admit that sometimes yes, im getting sawa with each other ,(i just dont know on her part hahaha).4 years of being classmate been together always everyday for more than 10 hours. Then,when out of school,we hang-out in each others house doing jamming session. Then when Sunday comes, we go to church together with our other friends. After graduation, we’re here working in same office 6days a week, 9 hours a day… (though nauna sya about 2 months sa work)… Oh my! I don’t know on the plans of God for us. Why does He’s makin’ us to stick together all the time. But Oopppsss… I know what you’re thinking. We’re not tomboy. What dah! hay… anyways… if there’s another word for “food” that would be vanz. She’s like doraemon. She’s really into foods even if she’s still eating. If in my case they’re saying that I only have small intestine, on the other hand in her case, oneday God spilled out large intestine and then she grabbed it all. Something like that! Aaaaaaaaggghhh.. parang di sya nabubusog. then everyday she's always saying "bukas, sisimulan ko na talagang mag-diet. ang taba-taba ko na talaga." yet, she's not doing that! instead, mas dumadami pa ang order nya ng foods everyday.

i haven’t notice that it’s lunch break… already , so got to stop blogging first ‘then later on, need to prepare for the meeting later afternoon.